Life is always moving along pushing us not so gently and with so many changes happening at once, I feel overwhelmed, tired, as if beaten about by this Autumn wind. But I've been inside protected all this time, at my desk behind a computer screen, instigating even more changes. Inner and outer are colliding as my best friend Estella left for Hawaii this early morning, and my sister Sri Louise moves in tomorrow from Oakland. Amazing Spirits passing I know they must feel each other as they simultaneously arrive and depart.
I am busy this lovely grey day writing my proposal for a an Artist Residency in Morocco! When I discovered it, a fierce passion made itself known: this is what I have always wanted and dreamed of and now is the time! So here I am gathering all my info that was lost when my hard drive crashed 2 years ago updating the last ten years of exhibits, publishing, teaching, a lot, I mean, a lot, and getting it all together in one CV. I've been in a time warp of personal history of old exhibits, artwork, friends, experiences. I've truly done a lot, including a brand new website to create the threshold for all these new goings on. I've been trying to be with my past while updating for my future while preparing for Sri Louise to arrive and helping, not as much as I would have liked to, the relocation of Estella.
While working on this, I hit the send button on my proposal for Morocco and my dream. And so it is. I'll keep you posted. My heart is in my belly; all this wanting I want I want and the deep feeling that this is mine. It's been a busy time. I am tired.
Meanwhile I've put off getting started on my 24" x 24" to get all this done. Every year since it's inception I have been part of the Harwood Art Center's 12 x 12 fundraiser and am happy this year to be picked for the 24" x 24." I'm fast, I'm furious, but I can't get this done by the deadline of Nov. 2. But soon, soon. I started this 2 weeks ago with images I have been collecting for a long time. I was so excited, I set up a bunch more panels and some papers for figure drawings. By the looks of it, you'd think I was committing to a series. Since Greece in 2006 I've wanted to do a matador/minotaur series. I did a great one for the 12 x 12 that year, but now its bigger, and hopefully I am better. Always striving, always evolving. Here's to beautiful new beginnings for all of us.